Confused... a little dazed... and a tiny bit terrified

So today was going to be an interesting day.

For one I was going to take my friend, who is my ex, shopping for shoes

Note he HATES shopping.

So at 9 this morning he met up with me and another friend and we headed off.

I then found out he had ordered some shoes online already.

So why he was going I really had no idea.

So we wander around goof off whatever. 

Then in the mall

Where they have those little massage chair things and the masseuses

He stopped when they tried to get us to get one

And he said "no thanks" and added "she needs one, I'll pay"

Confused I should say so.

So now I feel in debt to him because he paid for a massage.

Which I really do appreciate  because my back was killing me and now I can move again

So it's good, but weird, and I'm very confused.

I don't know why Heavenly Father won't let me just walk away from this one.

But he won't, I get to help Brian figure out whatever he's supposed to figure out.

That equals me asking weird questions and making him tell the truth

By the way that is not always fun.

So that was my weird confusing Saturday... 

Right now I feel like I'm jumping off a huge cliff,

Like the ones in the movies where you can't see what's at the bottom.

Yea it's terrifying;

And all I an do is hope there's water at the bottom,

or a pile of mattresses, either would work.