Sticking to your Guns is harder than it seems

Yesterday was a rough day. I really needed someone to talk to but everyone was too busy.

I know that homework and stuff is important so I can accept when you have plans that, yes, you really are busy.

But there was one person who I really wanted to talk to because they never fail to make me feel better; at least for a little while.

But they were too busy. I don't know with what. When I asked if they were too busy to text their response.

"Yup, I'm kinda busy"

That word choice hurt. A lot.

So here I am with a goal for the week that just might kill me.

I will not text them, e-mail them, or call them unless they do one of the three first.

Yes it's childish.

Yes I might regret it.

But right now I just want to know that they care enough to contact me.

It's definitely going to be hard.

I've sat at the table and stared at my e-mail for almost an hour now fighting the urge to e-mail them.

I've succeeded so far, but who knows how the rest of the night will go.

Hopefully I'll find the comfort and hope I need so much from another source so I can keep from contacting them.

Who knew that sticking to your guns on something so simple could be quite so difficult.