I think I may have made a mess of things. I honestly didn't mean to; I just, well you know how it works sometimes, you say something to someone that maybe you shouldn't have. Well I've been doing a good job of keeping my mouth shut for quite some time; but last night I blew it.
I have a friend who likes to give guys nicknames, so she gave her FHE brothers nicknames based on how she felt about them. To keep it all straight in her head she used her favorite books. So one FHE brother was her favorite book that when she read she gained something from it, another was a book she liked but that just didn't have much content and a third was a book she just couldn't stand. Well I'm friends with the book she can't stand. And last night we were talking and he mentioned that his FHE sister had told one of his roommates what all their nicknames meant, and he in turn told everyone else. But he couldn't remember what my friends nickname meant. Being amazing naive about trusting people I told him with the understanding he wouldn't be offended, and that he wouldn't tell her I told him.
Tonight I received a text that made me angry at myself and my guy friend. Me for opening my mouth when I shouldn't have, and him for telling that I had slipped. Right now guilt is eating at my gut. And while earlier I wanted to yell at my friend for tattling on me, right now I just want to do my best to make him feel as guilty as I do, honestly I don't know if that's possible.
So here's to hoping my friend will forgive me. I forgave her for a much bigger slip last year, but you never know how people are going to react.
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